When you were a kid you had all kinds of dreams for what your future was going to be like. Even as a teenager or young adult you had these dreams.
Then 'reality' beat them out of you.
That's not how it has to be though. When you were younger you figured that it would all just fall in to place for you like some miracle.
Start getting intentional about the life you want to live. Put together that plan to get there and start taking those baby steps.