I just finished editing a piece on how despite knowing I wanted to be a father since my late teens, I didn’t fall in love with my children right away. I stood there holding my first kid and felt nothing outside of what I generally feel about babies. They’re cute and I like snuggling them.
Then I open up my feed reader and find this powerful piece from Matt Gemmell examining his thoughts about the journey towards fatherhood.
While we came from different starting points, I understand what he’s feeling. Where I wanted to be a great father, I was confronted by a lack of emotion when meeting my daughter. It was a profound disappointment and made me question if I could even do this job I’d wanted for over a decade.